One thing I hate about holidays is that there will be plenty of times to self-reflect and ponder. THAT, i hate. I can't stop myself. I just happen to be one of those few people who has too much fun in the head, thinking and over-thinking about stuffs. I wish i still had some work to do.. GESL ended too fast. I can't start on the end project report yet as I haven't decide what my team needs to do yet. Guessed we are still basking in the achievement and relief. 

One of the things that got me pondering these days..is by far, my 'mischievousness', a 'secret' trait that I no longer find beneficial for myself. I must admit i was a whirlwind before, trail-brazing through people's way, in the most unpredictable manner. It was an eye-opener experience because I finally found the truest truest most truest friends who understands me and still accepts me the way I am. Not a good method but it was sure hell of a ride. I'm not sure if i'm still the same person as before, when i was free-spirited and out-of-control..because life has been more peaceful and focused now. Or maybe it was just me becoming more peaceful and focused. Oh you know, it was just a crazy phase. 

And with that, I refuse to be affiliated to people whom I had to deal with during those times. Perhaps I believe there's a reason they are in my past. And that I continually seek that learning experience and move forward without looking back. Sure, i do bloody missed some people I used to know..But what am I do? They probably hate me anyways. HAHA!!! Oh well, I can live with that. But i can't live with my own hatred towards people. Rather burn the bridges behind me than counting steps backwards.