"un-lost"

I realize I like getting lost in places. Really I do. It makes me excited actually. It makes me focused in exploring the areas around me. The peculiarity and alienation of sights, the roads that might lead me back to my way, and the pressure to ask directions from strangers. The hot flush I get from weighing the next approach and the different alternatives in transport, these thoughts rambling through my mind as I walked and walked. My senses peaked looking for clues and hints of familiarity, relying on just gut feelings and a hint of confidence. And voila! Everytime I found exactly where I wanted to be, didn't matter if I walked a hundred kilometres or going round and round in circles at first, or end up taking a cab just to realize it's at the other side of the street. If I didn't get lost in the first place, I wouldn't know how to find my way back and undoubtedly won't be aware of the other places besides my destination.

Because, let's face it, who likes the unfamiliarity?the fear of negative what-ifs in getting lost and never be found, the fear of being left alone in unknown territories. The fear of losing our step, fear of not knowing what to do next without people telling us. Fear of being considered a loser, or an incompetent person. Fear of this and that. But really, has anyone thought it this way; if we hadn't got lost at first, will we know how to get back ON OUR OWN? Perhaps life is the same,as well as love too. I guess if we hadn't got confused at first,let's say, on choosing passion or stable income as career, and then after realizing or thinking bout it, we actually didn't take the chance to give time and effort in figuring out the right path and priorities, not having the opportunity to ask for help from friends nor family, not getting the scale of pros and cons, we will never arrive at the solution as to why you're unhappy with your life. That's just relativity.

So... maybe getting lost; be it in life, love or destination, is not such a bad thing after all. It has certainly taught me how to survive and be tough, and can finally find myself back on track again. All the time.