Semi-Charmed

Here i am again..why? I'm not really sure...

I wished i wasn't that observant or intuitive,sometimes i just wished not to pay attention. So what do i do if i have? I pretend i didn't know what's going on but ALL that will catch up with me as much as i've avoided it. On idle times, these thoughts will consumed me. Which i hate.

I wonder if i am a chameleon. Always adapting but there's always a part of me that i want to hide. I don't know why but i feel safer when i do. It gives me my own euphoric value,my own high. To be myself. And no one knows about it. But sometimes i wish people knew something about me that I don't know. At least they know how to deal with my inner storms and restlessness..Contradictory much,yes i KNOW..

xoxo
zmzim