Self-deception is highest form of denial,guessed i was just avoiding stuffs around it..well, thanks to a good friend, i finally realised today,that i've not been forgiving myself for the things that happened before. The lady on the outside is trying to hard to evolve when the inside is bawling her tears out. Maybe it's okay if most people don't know your real self, but not knowing who you are, what you are afraid of, what you have the guts for, is worse. So from today onwards, i will learn how to forgive myself for the mistakes i've made,for the dramas i've caused myself and others, and for the hurt that i've felt.