I'm gradually feeling distant from the things i used to do, and the people whom i used to hang out with..and even the ones im close to before..i was so used to socialising and have some random friends to even chat through the phone every day..go out everyday,talk to SOMEONE everyday.


And now the person i ever get to talk to is myself,in the head, debating endless conversations whether i should wear the dress or the shirt to school,or whether i missed the bus or i should be prepared to run if i did..whether i grilled the students too much or too little, what i should do the next time to improve their artworks, do i have enough materials, do i have enough food today to last me the whole day, how i should go from sch A to sch B, where shall i go after school..probably home since there's no one else to meet and nothing else to do..

The 'friends' that i had now were my students,children of innocence with big mouths who talked even louder when i'm next to them asking what are they making with the clay..And once in a while,i get to see my other colleagues,but seem to be talking between themselves and i just make do with the endless talkings in my own head..and the artroom has now been my place of solace...


I am dying for a hug,a smile, or even a simple sms asking me how i am doing..

Well guess what, as much as a person is well-kept on the outside,doesnt mean they are always fine on the inside... All i need is my friends back in my life before i turn into ice.