Flashback

Yanoe i stumbled upon an old crush's profile in fb the other time. Didnt mean to see it but i got a little curious when the fella looks familiar but i'm not quite sure? So yeah i had alot of reasons to smile right now after what i've seen.

First of all, Mr "huge-crush-i-had-so-long-ago-for-4-frickin-years-of-my-sick-teenage-life" is now fugly, fat and plain. I seriously can't figure out whyyyyyyyyy i liked him in the first place..and for so long as well.

THAT IS EVEN MORE RIDICULOUSLY STUPID.
well,u noe how those high school crushes turn out to be so juvenile most of the times?


YEAH.THIS IS ONE OF THEM THAT TURNS OUT SOOOO TRUE.



Second of all, for seeing what he has turned out, i felt soooo much lucky for not trusting my stupid junevile instincts 5 years ago. If not i would have died due to the lack of 'self-image' and 'self-love'.ahahahah. I can't believe i stooped that low!! And to imagine me doing that now, i rather throw myself in the pool of blood, eat animal guts, breed lions in my house and die of old age as a spinster.


And believe it or not, out of frustration, i had a VERY short-term relationship with someone else whom i don't understand at all!! I took the plug and dump that fella. Cos it's just too frickin...absurd. Well,that's teenage romance for me. In fact, i don't even felt it!! HHAHA!! And it seems like bad karma cos everytime after that, i seem to break hearts even when i didn't do anything wrong, or at least not to me. It took quite a big deal to break the cycle though..

(Thank god for Nafa.LOL. Newness works everytime..\m/ )



I AM SO FRICKIN' THANKFUL I'VE CHANGED SO MUCH OVER THESE TEEN YEARS!!!!

SERIOUSLY.



Third of all, i realised alot about myself after that.. It's such a waste of time,really,who cares a shit?!!? If it happens, it happens.. if it doesnt' then i should stop anticipating. Seriously. Life is still a blast with or without all this nonsensical crush thingie. It's nice to grow wiser.



I am smiling like a duck right now. It's a wierdly cool feeling..HAHAHA.



xoxo
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