Burning coals in my mind

Lately i have been thinking (hard!)about the things that I subconsciously ignore. Its like..humans perceive what they wana see.but what if the things we didnt want to see,or the the things that seem less important than wad we wana see,are actually the foundations of our happiness that we had overlooked.?even so,what is ideal?do we even get to fight for the ideals we had imprinted in our minds?Hmm..

A guy i just got to know reminded me of all the things I had ignored before. He's a wholly complete opposite. I didnt know what and how it feels to be..at the other side of the spectrum. It wasnt as if i asked for it.But sumhow i realised there are just some things in life that are supposed to happen and it has to come to a point somewhere to whether you'll accept it or not.In this case for example, towards him,truthfully honestly..i'm not that ready to open up,yet. Though any person would gladly be interested~(note:gangly,mature,tall,silent,strong).i do of course,BUT i just want to feel like i still have my own space and my ideal perspectives.Its not that i'm selfish or rigid,i just don't want to put myself in situations that i dont feel right. And i definitely don't think anyone can ever change the way i think or my style of doing things except myself.

I think all i need alot is-time.Like an old train waiting for the coals to be burnt.

I just need to have alot of time.

xoxo

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